another lesson: repeating

my brain/mouth are inconsistent
my brain/mouth connection has a lisp
a forked tongue synapse or
time lapse between
the motions and the viewpoint
not doing this for you,
not doing this for you,
not doing this for me
not, seeing cross-examinations
of experience what-have-you-
done here for us, was there a second ago
cross-faded out of the room
in static, it is in static the
in it a world of, sighting a,
the woman you, was in the binoculars
all wind-blown and sun-tan and
melting butterscotch eyelids
drip onto me why don’t you
say “unto” like you meant it
before that door slides closed,
cut your hair off your hands off you’re
cutting it like that violently before
the priest could bless the stray
whimsical split ends now
rest counter-clockwise
who do you think you are not
doing this for you or
for God damn it doesn’t exist
fucking nihilist where has
it gone? turned to pointillism at
lisp cues now only seen
in select closed lids not
for you only for doing this;

dreams, re

i.e.
endless white
ocean-spins
toothless nightmares
jawbone spooling,
monogamy
four/eights of the time
on counting
on the, a
limbless hollow core
can’t take time to
lookoverthere

re: infinitum
what it feels like to watch
people other than you
moving forward
while you are stagnant
and growing bacterial emptiness
until you are a void stream flowing outward


cc: excess
this is exactly how you contract rabies
get bitten by THE MAN on your shoulder

it is all slippery and it is basic, it is
a nail sticking up from a step
catching socks

there was no such thing as paradise where
she was headed